Me, Myself and I-Self..yeah baby I ride high of ego !

What do u do on a completely othala (jobless) day? If u are me u go ahead and attend a "touch ur soul" session that turned out to be one big ho-hum event right from the word "touch" ! Sigh! Somewhere in the middle(dnt know which point,sleep took over) the sermonizer in a roaring voice asked " Who are you, can u describe yourself?", swearing under my breath for disturbing my blissful sleep i sat upright and wondered how these preachers manage to lull you to sleep with their sweet voice and at the same time bolt u back into position with their deafening roar.

If you asked the above question to a twenty something dumb-wit , he would ve replied in the obvious, "software engg" but when you are sitting with a group of 40 something ppl in their ties and floral print skirts(man can't believe this fashion blooper hasn't yet met the Dodo fate!) you get typical Deepak Chopra type answers , "im the eternal soul immortalised in a body crafted by God", Oh f#%^! Who reads Deepak Chopra these days ?


But this question got me thinking, what are the qualities that make me,ME! It sure is difficult to put all your habits,fears and dreams in a white blog space. *introspection*
So here are the different facets that make up my multifaceted life and i choose to believe tht mine is like a rainbow, a mix of bright and subtle hues!


* I love to sit and procrastinate , if it hadn't been for this trait i would ve opened my own bakery,written a book, learnt spanish, played drums for a rock band, travelled the world (ok i dnt ve the dough for that but hey! no harm in planning right!), thrown out all those decade old notebooks i ve stacked away in cardboard boxes, learnt tennis, dipped my fingers in dramaturgy, dipped the fingers of my other hand in teaching(nursery kids) n the likes but alas! im spending by days doing the obvious !

* I always dream of being somebody else, aaahh common all of us do that! Like the time u meet a very enterprising and articulate person who can play the guitar, dunk, and who has the intelligence to compliment it all . If a mirror was placed in front of you at that moment, you would ve seen your face go all green with envy. There ve been days i ve wanted to be like my friends, friends who know wht their future looks like, friends who are talented, friends who walk around with great oomph. These thoughts last only for a fleeting moment but its perennial !

* I live with a perpetual fear of losing my family and loved ones. I'd rather under a tombstone before anyone of them.

* I can watch SouthPark for 24hrs without feeling sick and pukeish, btw this trait takes the top most position in my Mr.Perfects repertoire (hmm,wonder where he is!).

* I cannot end my week without having a conversation with Buffalo(some ppl call her Swetha) and Savi,school pals i ve known for almost 15 yrs. Also on that list is my punching bag aka Mich, and Jagan,the only guy who can get away with callin me a bitch.

* My parents are not the cool types. They don't pat by back and say things like "Huh,you could gulp down only 2 glasses of vodka? u need to better tht count!" or "Moleee, its only 11PM, i wasn't expecting u before 3AM" or "what,u don't ve a boyfriend!! , leela aunty's daughter manages 5 boyfriends!"..

* I make friends very very easily,i always got along well with the different groups in school and college :: manicure-pedicure-nailpolish group, academic-books-are-my-life group, northie group, i-live-for-sports group, southie group, just about anybody!

* My greatest friend and biggest supporter was, is and will always be my mom. One person who knows all my friends from school, college and office, knows my taste in clothes ,food, music ,books , sports and just about anything. Her wittiness is just inexplicable i say, my sis comes a close second! But with my dad things are different, most of the time its limited conversation.

* I cannot survive a trip to the bathroom without a novel, magazine, newspaper, pamphlet, comics, anything with written material on it! Talk of productivity!

* I cannot for the life of me say NO!
"hey ann my dog just pooped on ur porch,can u clean it for me??"
"Ahh, pooped is it !,ahh..,sure why not i'm looking forward to that exercise!"

"hey can you throw my trash,i need to get to the parlour for my head massage??"
"Oh why not, I'll do that while u enjoy ur massage!"
it is just so so difficult to say that two letter word, bet lot of you battle with this same problem!"

* I love love love to cook,thoran,sambar,avial, biscuits, cake, casseroles, pudding, lasagne, salads... vegetables or meat that can be steamed, tossed, baked and fried has faced the heat under my eyes! and also i love love love to eat ,so there it is :: a perfectoo balanceoo!

* I'm not a movie freak ,as in I cant remember the last time i sat in an AC room and watched something on that big screen but i do make it a point to watch a malayalm picture (prefer the ones from the 80's or early 90's) every sunday on asianet or kairali or surya.

* I'm a neatness freak, my books,clothes,sports equipments,pens n pencils et al can be found in the same place anytime of year and i hate it when ppl(Sis/Mom) borrow my nail-cutter and forget to place it back at the correct place.

* I don't like washing my jeans(hmm..it contradicts the above statement!). I zimmbblly hate the feel of washed jeans or corduroy, they don't hug u at the right places! I believe that jeans catch pneumonia when they come in contact wit water! bloop!

* I'm a great fan of sports, love flexing my limbs with a racquet, ball(all types!) or just abt any sports equipment. Running, Long jump, Kho-Kho, Kabbadi , Shot-put, BasketBall, Swimming , Tennis , Badminton, Football, Cricket and off late Throwball, i ve played it all.

* I'm zapped and completely clueless when i meet someone and the first thing outta their mouth is "wassup!" or "howz life!", they are the most cliched, meaningless ,emotionless conversational gambit !

* I'm a great fan of gospel music and can hum gospel songs 24/7 . I've still not given up my desire to read the bible from cover to cover but the closest i ve got is completing Genesis. I must add i don't quiet believe in the sayings of priest and nuns, while has resulted in furious battles with my nun-aunts and priest-uncles in kerala!

* I' ve a pathetic hadwriting and feel proud of it too. It is soo pathetic that once my math teacher told me "Ann! wht is it u ve written here,i can't figure out if its a cos or a sin .!" this happened 7 yrs back n i still havnt done anything about it, procrastination at its best !

* I'm a walkaholic,i walk to the library,walk to the supermarket, walk back home form office , walk to the mall , walk to brigade roads , get the swing! If its walkable i will be covering it by foot!

* I'm not really a sensitive person. Bear hugs,wet hanki, cooche-coo talks are not my forte! I find it very diffciult to acknowledge a compliment or something thoughtful in an appropriate way.

* I'm a big big attention seeker. I firmly believe in the saying "no of ppl watching you is directly proportional to the stupidity of your action", laughing out loud, jumping around , getting alll excited around ppl, or doing some obnoxiously stupid thing, i indulge in these cheap scale antics ! :)

* I suck in the art of flirting. Damn!!All those crushes i had in college died with time. I feel mortified to say taht i lived a solitary life all these years and age does not permit me to indulge in this teen-fantasy now! Sigh!

* I still walk around with a belief in love at first sight! Shucks,its about time i looked at love in a more realistic way!

* I'm not ashamed of baring out my habbits, good or bad :)"i dont love myself, im crazy about myself"

GO ahead prepare your list, start introspecting and you'll see how difficult it is!